.spoketheunspoken.

watdefak?

itu soal jalanan.

now we’re getting back to the ol’ damn problem that i guess everybody had (or, at least, experienced) : love.

entah kenapa perasaan seperti ini bisa ada. it’s like a bit empty, wanted to love, wanted to be loved, and a mix of hold back. emang susah kalo udah mulai ada feeling terhadap seseorang. see, this is why i hate myself when i already had a certain sign of a crush. i become such a mindless thing. my mood just swings like hell. and tell you, it’s very annoying.

nggak bisa dihindarin kalo emang kenyataannya belakangan ini gw lagi punya ‘something‘. dan karena ‘something‘ inilah perasaan gw kacau balau. thanks a lot. setelah gw mulai adapt and feel comfy dengan my so-called-life, tiba” : duar. semua berantakan. emangnya enak tiap hari, tiap saat meskipun cuma selintas, mikirin terus? itu masih mending kalo cuma selintas. nah, kalo sampe seharian full cuma duduk diam di kamar, paling top nyalain komputer denger lagu (itu juga lagu” sedih atau yang mellow”) dan mikirin full seharian itu? bisa dikira udah gila kali. dan itulah yang sering gw lakukan belakangan ini. damn.

begonya, gw kadang menikmati perasaan kayak gini. yeap. menikmati. agak tersiksa emang. cuma anehnya ya itu tadi. menikmati. lucu ya? hm. try to be me and we’ll see if you could laugh after that.

and you know what?

i missed the ol’ days.

i missed the day when i didn’t have a clue about love after all.

i missed the day when i have my own love, not to worried to give to anyone.

i missed myself.

dan gw kangen jalanan jakarta yang sepi serta semulus pantat kebo. suer.

oh. lagi.

i need to stop myself from love.

seriously.

better : i need to stop thinking. sucks.